FEELINGS

These feelings I have for you are so deep. I can feel them boiling deep down inside of me. I love you. But its too soon to tell you. You gave me your body and I gave you mine. 

I'm afraid. Afraid that you won't love me the way I love you. Afraid I'm no more than someone you're dating. 

But I know that's not true. I know you need me in your life. I know you desire me. I'm so happy 

I don't do drugs anymore. My mind is changing, evolving and you're a witness to all of it. 

You're falling in love with who I really am. Maybe that's why no one ever loved me. Because drugs kept me from showing what's truly beneath me.

 Im so vulnerable when I'm with you and even worse when I'm without you. Ad yet I want to dive into you until I know for sure....

But maybe it isn't about trusting. Maybe love is a jump. umping into the dark abyss, with your arms open, face first, regardless of what's to come. 

After all, life is meant to be spent living, not dying. I love you Dan. I'm going to dive into your dark abyss. Because you told me to trust that you're not going to hurt me. 

Maybe I'm the beast you should be afraid of. Maybe you're the one to see what you're made of.